I've been a little down lately thinking about Tryst. Even though I'm with Ashley now, and I love Ashley, and I couldn't have gone on with Tryst as things were once I found Ashley -- despite all of that, I never got any closure on my relationship with Tryst.
The last time I saw Tryst at all was probably close to a month ago. The last time I heard from her, she said she was having internet problems, but she hadn't disappeared, so don't worry. And the last time I spoke with Tryst she had mentioned that she was crying in the shower after our previous encounter.
Maybe she was falling in love with me. Maybe I made her uncomfortable. Maybe I was no good at cybersex. Maybe she wasn't ready for any of it or we were going too fast. Maybe she's mad at me for being in (real life, not Second Life) love with Ashley.
I may never know now. People sometimes disappear from the virtual world and it's like they never existed. I did that to a guy with my first SL avatar, Suzanne. She had a backstory that was not me, and even a fake email address. But when things got uncomfortable, Suzanne dropped out of SL and Astyanax was born in her place.
I sort of hope Tryst is still reading this blog (not that I've updated it much of late). I suspect she's probably not. But if she did, I'd want her to know that I miss her friendship.
Second Life goes like that sometimes. It's a strange world when you can disappear completely and reinvent yourself however you like. I hope Tryst is happy, wherever she ended up.
3 weeks ago